So, our class had a pre-christmas party last night and we had rented a sauna in the local club. Today is the local independence day so we don't have to worry about going to the school after a hard night. The evening began pretty well; the only bad thing was that few of the guys were totally whacked out already at 9 PM and acted really annoyingly. The other was just a minor annoyance with stupid talks and tough-guy act but the other who couldn't even speak properly anymore tried to cause a fight with the guy sitting next to him but luckily he had lost the control of his motorics so badly that his 'punches' were about as strong as a mouse's.
Well, as the most sober of the bunch I tried to calm him down but at the end we had to drag him to sit a bit away from the others. The other guy had already left for home to sleep but it seemed he had changed his mind as I suddenly noticed him lying on his back next to the swimming pool. I was scared at first that he had hit his head at the tiled floor but as he seemed to be OK (besides the fact that he was half passed out) we dragged him to sit next to the other 'drunk'* guy. I still kept taking a look at their direction every minute when we continued chatting which turned out to be a good thing.
* Afterwards I realized these guys probably had probably taken also something else besides alcohol.
Suddenly I noticed the less annoying guy crawling on his hands and knees towards the swimming pool. I naturally sprang up and tried to stop him but we had left him too close to the pool for me to reach him in time. I leapt into the water and took him to the surface so the others could drag him up.?He had been enthustiastic about swimming earlier when we had bathed in the sauna so I first thought that he just had suddenly in his semi-conscious state cought an urge to go swimming again. The truth was much more worrying, though.
At first when he was only semi-conscious he kept apologizing us and I was shocked when he started saying how he just 'wanted away'. Someone called a taxi for those two and we took the soaking wet guy to the ground floor (the sauna & pool were in the cellar) and I stayed with him trying to cheer him up while waiting for the taxi. I was relieved when he got more conscious and actually was able to laugh with me at his own stunt. Then he started getting more gloomy again and started explaining why he had done that thing. At that point, though, some of the others gathered around us to see how he was doing and I went back downstairs to collect my stuff. When I came up again I heard that the taxi had already left so I had to run in ca -25?C temperature with soaking wet pants about a mile to my apartment to change clothes. None of us had come by car - although the law allows one to drive car with 0,3 0/00 of alcohol in the blood it's a general practice that when you have had any alcohol at all you don't drive.
The rest of the evening went pretty well but for some reason I couldn't get to the mood anymore. We spent rest of the night at the club - or the others did, I left at 2 AM utterly bored. When walking back to the apartment I felt more depressed than in years for some reason. I can't understand why, since my life hasn't been this good for a long time. It couldn't have been caused by the alcohol since I was almost totally sober.
When I got back at my apartment I tried to get some sleep but I just couldn't stay at one point. I was exhausted but I just had to keep moving; I paced around in my apartment and actually started crying for some reason. When I couldn't tell anymore if I was sobbing or laughing I really got worried about myself. After 15-30 minutes of this I finally could calm down enough to lie down and close my eyes. I think it took me an half an hour more to finally fall asleep. I really don't know what was wrong with me since I normally don't show my feelings even when alone. I feel a bit better now but I'm a bit worried about myself at and even moreso worried about the guy who tried to drown himself.
I'm surprised if any of you actually could be bothered to read all this but it doesn't matter to me. This is just a way for me to channel out the depression and I do feel much better after I got this whole thing out of my system.