yargh :////

[mr_gee]

I have known a lot of you for a while now and I've seen all of you grow-up. At first this tight-knit community was full of flaming kids who didn't know what life was. I don't know how old most of you are), I do know that a lot of you are growing, some of you are my age, but a lot of you are younger. This may or may not be an appropriate thread for ;0 and I feel with age comes maturity and maturity comes more complex situations.

 

Here I go.

 

I am writing this because I am a frustrated as to why I stress myself out by having people living with me

I don't know how you people who live alone or whatever can deal with roommates.

It drives me so low in some ways and seriously to the point of insanity.. I can't stand people older then me who don't work and expect the world to offer everything to them.. They expect respect for having no money, no job.. Though I give them the chance by letting them live here for free. I do this because I've known them for years. As I've grown as a person they've turned into the most negative imbeciles on earth. I learn a lot from this.. I've already kicked one guy out (who begged me for hours to let him stay) and I am about to boot the other out. I see that generosity can hurt a person, but how? For me it hurts me emotionally, I get enraged by being around fools and fucking beggers. Though I do control what goes on in my place, I put myself through incredible amounts of stress for no apparent reason. So you'd think the most suitable sollution to this would be to kick them out and either find a new roomy or live by yourself. That should be the best option.

 

It all comes down to what would happen to these guys if they get the boot. I know that the one guy is currently homeless and I really don't give a rats ass where he is right now. The other guy who is still with me who has a few assets would be homeless as well. By having no money he is totally fucked and relying on me and has no concept of indepenence. I find it hard to hurt a person this way (by sending them to the street).

 

I've recently spent an enormous ammount of time in therapy to try and deal with having an avoidant personality. As I've been deemed "cured" and the thought and pain of seeing a therapist for a good 4 months is frightening. I feel I may or may not be avoiding a serious circumstance by losing another one of the people that are or were close to me in my life. But, life would move on and as it's told 'everything happens for a reason'. As I try to figure this out and the sheer simplicity of this situation with the last roomy may amaze some of you but for me it is very fucking complex. I once relied on smokine dope for these kinds of situations, but now I contemplate every situation and nearly every possible outcome. I am still trying to figure out the outcome of this.

 

enough of this pointless rave about one of the few things that bother me in life.

 

My next rave will be about every kid on the internet who plays computer games 24/7 and those who have no idea of what having a social life in the real world.

Fuck it I'll just keep writing.

Take a piss break, smoke a big fucking joint. Pop your acid because here is a hayday of bullshit!

 

This is from my POV

I was once gobbled up with this newly found fad called cyberspace. I find it intriguing that a lot of these people who are on irc, who play counter-strike and are in clans. They are still in school, struggling to keep their pathetic C average. Have no goals in life, no concept of time or even know what a breath of fresh air is like. They have problems with their parents, denial would be a huge thing for them. I do belive a lot of these people avoid confrontations with reality. I can say this first hand because I've been through it, I conquered it and I am very fucking happy to say I'm through it. Am I wrong or am I right? I want your opinions/experiences with this.

 

I do believe that if you could play cs/talk on irc untill the early hours of the morning and be late for school/work and kick yourself in the ass the next night saying FUCK because you failed your mid-term. That is an addiction. You can not say otherwise.

 

I will cut this rave short as I feel I've vented my thoughts for the days.

 

I hope you are all doing well, having a great start to your summer.

 

-mr_gee

[Chomps]

Okay, I read it. I have no fucking idea about the first part. Just kicking them out of the place certainly is not the obvious choice, but it may ultimately be the best choice. Maybe try and push yourself to throw in a little more effort and frustration into helping them get jobs.

 

As for the internet-obsessed folk, best of luck to them. I used to be a lot like that and I'm not sure why I stopped. Real life and social situations are a lot harder to deal with and not always very rewarding. Really, it takes a lot of work to be happy.

 

Oh fuck it, I'm going to go play DoD. I'll see you guys at 3:00 AM.

[Angeldust]

sometimes you gotta do what makes you happy. don't you feel you've done enough for them already? it's not like they're handicapped and can't make a living. kick them out. you'd be doing them a FAVOR by teaching them independence. focus on yourself for a change. it's not your job to fill in the governments or welfares shoes. they're too big to fill and you've got a life to live.

 

I don't have an addiction to the internet. i have a busy life, which hardly lives me room to post and to go on irc. what really keeps me on the internet are my friends who are here. my love for them. it's like how people have different groups of friends in life. this is just another one. there are certain things you can do with certain groups that you can't with others.

 

About people who are addicted to the internet... i suppose they will figure things out in their own time, just like we did at some point or another. i'm happy for you that you've come to a realization that benefits you. best of luck man.

 

 

edit: the reason i am able to post here frequently is because there are no projects coming into the office, so i have 7 hours to kill 3 days a week. surfing the internet = the only thing i can do here, while getting paid for it.

[mr_gee]

im not talkin about posting on forums tho :o

[l0bstar]

I used to be a terrible mess like that. I'd stay on the internet all the time, and I'm not sure why. I'd play CS and other games. I was overweight, plain and simple. I had plenty of friends outside the internet that I did stuff with, but it was still an addiction. I slowly grew out of it. I realized it wasn't what I wanted and found that it really was a pathetic lifestyle. So about a year and a half, two years ago I started running and eating less, working out and doing stuff. I practically turned my life around in 6 months. I lost 40-45 pounds (I'm down to 175 lbs now), picked up a girlfriend (Tori. I've been friends with her since 6th or 7th grade) who I'm very happy with, improved my grades (I was already above that C average but I started doing better). I just finished high school with a GPA close to 4.2 weighted. My GPA 4th quarter was 4.75, which is pretty cool. I'm headed to NC State next year to major in Biological Sciences or Zoology. If I do BioSci I'll probably focus on microbiology or parasitology. Don't worry dudes, I'll keep up my idling in IRC and posting on the forums as soon as my computer is back and I'll keep it up through college and beyond... Even if I move to some awesome place where I'll be busy all the time.

 

G, my dad was sorta like that guy. He was an alcoholic and couldn't hold a job or a home. The only thing that made him learn to stop fucking up was faith his in God, but mostly not having anybody there to maintain him.

[mr_gee]

wow cool lobst@r

/me high 5s

[Axe]

Oh mister gee.

 

You should kick those clowns out of the place, or ask them to start paying rent. There's no excuse for people not supporting themselves. Even the biggest slobs can get a job, it's not that difficult. If they don't want to work, they deserve to live on the street. It's not worth the stress to let them hang around forever. You're acting as a parent to them, and that's not what friends are about.

 

The internet addiction thing is something I know about all to well. I used to be addicted to CS. It's not like it was the only thing I would do, but the fact that I kept playing day after day was disgusting. I didn't even enjoy playing it. There was very little reward and it usually made me frustrated, but it gave me my fix. In the end, I uninstalled the game and vowed never to play again. That was a long time ago so I can safely say I'm over it.

 

The sad state of CS these days is composed mostly of 15-year-olds who live in a fantasy world they don't even realize. I just want to smack some of them and inform them of the real world that exists outside of their computers. Most of them will grow out of it, but a few sad souls will stay in their own little world as long as they can.

 

Some people (mostly the gamers themselves) say it's not an addiction and it's just something to do. In reality, they're in denial. Virtual worlds can be just as addicting as anything else. Everquest's subscription base, for example, is made up mostly of addicts. I'm sure almost everyone can tell you about someone they knew who was addicted to Everquest.

 

I don't see a problem with people posting on forums or chatting on IRC. Stimulating conversation is on a whole different level than games are. It's a much more prodctive way to spend your time. Finding a balance between work and plauy (even when on your own time) is what it's all about. I'm alway doing something these days, mostly working on websites, and haven't been bored in years.

 

On a somewhat related subject, I think some of the ;0 people represent the other end of the spectrum. Quiet anti-social kids, who mostly do good in school, but live very conservative sheltered lives. They feel the need to go bonkers when they get on the internet. Spamming, being annoying, and acting like a retard is the only way to escape their boring life. They're all smart kids and I wish some of them could recognize they're own actions and shape up a little.

 

Anyway, good luck with that gee. :)

[mr_gee]

indeed

 

I wrote this thread through frustration

Anxiety took the best of me tand I feel the same eitherway.

I am a little drunk but I must post..

I believe your post is quite accurate.

Interesting to say nontheless

 

/me passes out now

 

thanks for posting axe

great post